Ahhhh, fall is right around the corner!


downloadIt’s FINALLY that time of year … I’ve been watching college football since Thursday night and it’s helping me be pretty happy.  Of course, FSU doesn’t play until Monday night – but I love college football!  Right now, I’m watching Alabama vs VA Tech … go Hokies!  Ahhhh, fall is right around the corner!

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I took Nica – my JRT above [18 months ago] – to the vet two weeks ago and they tested her left and right.  They said nothing is wrong with her.  Fast forward to the present time and she’s lost more weight … and seems to be weak.  But she is eating and going to the bathroom … and still wagging that nub of  tail just as fast as usual.

I’m emotional about it.  I’m not ready for her to leave this Earth and I’m just hoping it’s because she’s older.  My friend Ryan told me that sometimes older dogs just begin to lose weight — and so, I’ve I switched her Blue Buffalo from adult to puppy food and I’m adding the Blue wet varieties now.  So far, she’s eating it and loving it.

So, I’m just going to watch, wait and see.  If you have a four-legged child – you know what this is doing to me.

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Therapy has been good and I’ve had to realise a few things about my family relationships.  I’d assume everyone has heard the adage “Blood is thicker than water.”  Sadly, that’s not always enough.  The bottom line is that until someone you love recognises their problem(s) and makes a concerted effort to deal with them – you just have to walk away.  And when they use children as a weapon … well, you’ve crossed a line that only selfish, insecure people resort to doing.

I’m happy to say that I’ve lost no sleep over it — it’s sad — because I’ve done everything I can do to make it better.  I had to decide between staying connected to a miserable person or continuing on my journey back to my happiness — and my happiness is more important because I’m just willing to go through my down times anymore.

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Of course, Rafa is back in New York for the US Open!  He had an incredible win on Thursday night over Rogiero Dutra Silva 6-2, 6-1, 6-0 and his even more impressive win over Ivan Dodig 6-4, 6-3, 6-3  this afternoon.   His approach to the hard court is drastically different and it was on display winning the 25th ATP World Tour Masters 1000 title in Montreal and winning the Western & Southern Open in Cincinnati before heading to New York.

I believe he’s going to win it all and I’ll be right there for every match — losing my voice! VAMOS RAFA!

And then there’s the question of Syria.  I’m torn.  I don’t doubt that Assad ordered the chemical attacks on his own people (of course, I’d like to hear the results of the UN Report); however, I’m just not sure about the US going into Syria – alone.  The British have almost always sided with the US, but this time Parliament sent a resounding no to Prime Minister Cameron.

The bigger questions are:  What if nobody steps up to the plate to help Syria?  What if some sort of attack is perpetrated against Israel for US involvement (of course, Israel will resoundingly kick ass if Assad orders any type of weapons be fired, shot and/or pointed toward Israel)?

I don’t want to see innocent people to continue to die because a man – who says he loves his country – refuses to step down, but chooses to murder his own people.  And of course, the people around him allow him to keep doing these horrible things.

I just hope that whatever happens doesn’t turn into a bloodbath in the Middle East and that the people of Syria don’t become extinct because of one man.

And that’s it for me – right now!  I’ve got some college football to go watch! 🙂  I might post later this weekend!

Shalom,

Bryce

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you see, TiVO is my friend


One of the most important things I’ve learned during my journey back to being happy is that you cannot allow anyone to – even for a moment – detour you.  The negativity I’ve experienced over last 18 months prior to June — has and continues to affect my health, but I must say that things are starting to get better, but it’s a day-by-day process.

I’ve found myself, for the last few days, saying, “I can not be a part of this negativity.”  That’s something that I used to say after I’d been a part of the conversation for a while and suddenly would become overwhelmed.  Now, I’m finding that I’m saying it almost immediately when a conversation shifts to something negative.

My therapist said that this means that I’ve reached a point where I’m no longer willing to keep myself in a situation where a conversation or an event is rapidly approaching negativity.  Last week,  I found myself in a conversation about someone that, apparently, is pissing people off left and right.  And I, of course, added my tw0-cents worth.

I literally could feel the impact of this conversation on my body physically – my neck and shoulders began to hurt from the tension.   It’s amazing once you’ve begun to feel so much better that you can instantly realise when you need to say, “I understand what’s going on and I feel bad about; however, I cannot deal with all this negativity right now and I’m going to step away.”   And what I appreciate more than anything … the people in my life – my friends, family and colleagues understanding where I’m working to get and respecting me when I pull away. 🙂

This past week was extremely tiring … meetings and supposedly well thought out designs — that had to be adjusted repeatedly in order to accommodate the space I was working on … a classroom.  Yes, even classrooms need exceptional design to enhance the environment for the teacher and students who’ll be living there for the year.  My work there is not complete, but it’s really close! 🙂  I’ll be glad when I finish that little project and move on to bigger and better things!

I know that I talk about my TiVO a great deal and yes, I’m going to talk about it again … you see, TiVO is my friend because he lets me watch my shows without commercials.  Why is that so important?  Because I don’t have to watch any of the political nonsense being spewed by both sides.  I rarely engage in political discussions debates with people who have their minds made up before they even initiate or join a conversation.

My voting method is simple: I vote against anyone who believes it’s okay to put the burden of the economy on the backs of the middle class; the dismantling of environmental protection; bash public servants (teachers, police, fire fighters, paramedics, social workers, et al.) on a regular, on-going basis and when they do not pay their fair share of taxes based upon their income (in and outside the US). End of story!

So, tonight – another of my favourite shows comes to an end for the season … Falling Skies has been better than I imagined it would be and I love the fact that Wil Wheaton hosts an after-show panel.

The second season has been better and apparently, tonight the last five minutes are touted as being sensational and setting the stage for an upswing in S3.  Although, I’ve liked the show, I’ve been waiting for the other shoe to drop — you know, Steven Spielberg’s name is on this show and so, I’m expecting things to shoot to the next level really quickly!

Speaking of shows … several of you have emailed about The Closer and well, I’ve had time to digest the final episode from last week … We all knew it would go out with a bang, but it literally did.

I figured that it would have to be related to someone from her past and I had thought about the rapist-lawyer, but I thought the bang would be that Brenda Leigh Johnson would be named as the Chief of Police.

I’m sure I’m not the only person who thought that would be the end of the show – right?  It was bad enough that her mother died — that was a huge shock, but when she walked into the bedroom with the cup of coffee and was rambling without a response from her mother — well, I think that caught everyone off guard.

My guess was that she’d make guest appearances on Major Crimes as the Chief and she could focus on other acting projects.  I did watch Major Crimes, but I’m not sold on it yet and maybe I’ll never be sold on it 100% … but I’m giving the show the benefit-of-doubt for a while.

I am sad that Rafa has withdrawn from the US Open, but I can certainly understand why … his knee has to be given the time to heal properly if he’s going to continue his career.  It will be weird to watch without him playing, but if I’m pulling for anybody in this tourney, I’m pulling for Andy Murray now.  I think his finally winning at Wimbledon — well, the Olympics, but on the Wimbledon grounds mind you — will give him a boost.  Hopefully, Rafa recovers fully and returns in January for the Australian Open.

I continue to be saddened by the slaughter of the innocent people of Syria who want nothing more than freedom.  If there were peace in the Middle East, the US and the EU would have already gone in to stop this bloodshed; however, because of the hostilities and threats made daily to Israel by various anti-Israeli militant and terrorist groups  – it is impossible to step in for fear of attacks on Israel.

I believe that the continued defections of top Syrian leaders and military leaders will bring about the fall of Bashar Hafez al-Assad and his regime — and I hope it’s soon.  It’s a shame that religion and politics play such a deadly role in the lives of human beings across this planet every single day.  My prayers and thoughts go out to the people of Syria.

Okay, I have a bajillion things to do today and I’ve procrastinated long enough at this point!

I need to get started and stop — well, you know, not doing — procrastinating — so, here’s to a great rest of  ‘what’s-left-of-the-weekend’ … 🙂

Peace,

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Turbulence.  A word any flyer – frequent or novice –  does not want to hear a pilot rattle over an intercom on a commercial jet.

And if you have an experienced pilot, they usually know how to climb above what is causing the turbulence.  It’s like that in life … turbulence is something that we expect and it’s something we have to deal with, but once in a while … we have the ability to avoid it based on the choices we make in our lives.

Pilots fly above the turbulence – especially if it’s from a storm and we, too, find ways to fly above everything that is causing turbulence within our lives.  This week … well, I found a way to fly above the turbulence and there is nothing like having a good sense of peace. Finally. 🙂  We all have our battles, but it’s when we have hope that they seem to be better … and that hope sometimes comes from people that have no idea that they’re helping us in our journey.

This journey back to happy has helped me realise that it’s okay to be lazy “once-in-a-while”, but this is — well, I must admit … I’ve been nothing but lazy when I’m not working – as of late.  I think it’s time for me to start writing out those to do lists … they seem to work so well for me, but for now — I’m enjoying the ride — and I’m well aware that I have to stop doing ‘nothing’ — as it could become a habit! 😛

I’m so excited that the Olympics have finally arrived … I’m a huge fan of most sport, but mainly swimming, diving, volleyball, soccer and tennis.  It should be no surprise that I’ve loyalties; however, some lines must be crossed … I will be cheering for Tom Daly (UK), Michael Phelps (US) and Rafa Nadal (ESP).  Why wouldn’t I want my favourite athletes to win their sport in the Olympics?  Alas, not everyone feels that way — many would say: we must cheer whole-heartedly for our homelands … well, I’m cheering for humankind! 🙂  Cannot wait to see what the opening ceremonies look like (it’s being TiVOed) because I’ll not want to sit through commercials. 🙂

And now, I’m off to cook …  it’s time to try out this little recipe for Honey-Lime Chicken Skewers! Here’s to experimenting in the kitchen, raising a glass to the weekend and  watching lots of sport this weekend … compliments of the London 2012 Summer Olympics! Hear, hear! 🙂

Cheers,

I think I have a really good eye…


The past week has been one of the better weeks I’ve had in a long time and I really feel like it’s going to keep heading in that direction.  One of the most important parts of getting back to my happiness  is being able to think without your mind racing and dragging you back into that dark place.

One of my new obsessions is BBC’s Sherlock … I had seen promos for the show, but blew past them. Then I watched and got hooked.  And I’m officially all caught up — just waiting for Season 3 now.  I said all of that to say — the quote you’re seeing, above, is from Sherlock.  It’s what he does when he really needs to sort things out and well, I totally understand that mindset.  I love my ‘me time’ because it allows me to clear my mind and that’s a healthy thing to do.

I’ve been busier than a one-armed wallpaper hanger with updating/adding pages and exporting my blog content to my new Blogger account — it’s nothing more than a double press — I want a bigger audience and I’ll eventually connect both of those blogs to my own personal website … The Big Pixture — which I’ve been working on to update! 🙂  All of this kinda stuff takes me one step closer to my happiness … it’s the creative side of me that has been buried for months and it’s starting to push its way back … to the front! 🙂

I’ve started to really get into interior design — several of my friends have solicited my opinions and then did the work — and it turned out great. It’s really easy to design when it’s not your money being spent!!!   I think I have a really good eye and love figuring that kind of stuff out … if you have a creative thread in your soul — it shines through in all areas: art, cooking, graphics, design, et al.  It’s kind of amazing to know that being a creative person helps jump start the journey back into the light!

Today is the Wimbledon Men’s Championship and alas, my favourite – Rafa Nadal, is not there. 😦  He never truly even got out of the gate.  I wonder if the entire hype regarding making history at the French Open kinda rattled his mindset?  And with him out, I didn’t even really get into Wimbledon this year – and I always watch every single match live or TiVOed.  I am glad that Serena won her 5th title — I like her a lot now; however, I didn’t care for her that much in the earlier part of her career because of the attitude (which she still has, but she handles it so MUCH better now).   So, hopefully Rafa settles down and focuses on the tourneys left for this year – including the US Open in NY!

Nica poking out from under the bed covers this morning …

So, yesterday was a ‘day for the dogs’ … literally.  I bought a new bed and lots of goodies for Nica.  The two things she loved more than any of the other things were her new bed and the new lining for her ‘house’ (that’s what I call her crate and it’s the only word she knows for her crate).  She rooted around in her new bed and then promptly found a t-shirt of mine lying in the bedroom and proudly carried it to her new bed … and then did the same with a pair of socks to her ‘house’ … it’s amazing, to me, how my scent provides her with comfort when I’m not around … I’ve had to be really careful about what I drop on the floor – clothing wise – because she’ll drag ANYTHING to her bed or ‘house’ … if you have a dog, you know exactly what I’m talking about! 🙂

So, I’m ready to get my day underway … lots of little things I need to do and I cannot procrastinate today! 🙂  Here’s to a great Sunday and what’s left of the weekend!

Hugs,

… absolute RANDOM moments of weirdness …


It’s official … Life is, in fact, good (click on the logo above to be taken to the actual Life is Good site to buy their way cool stuff) … it’s better … it’s back to normal and I couldn’t be happier … its been a long, long while since I haven’t felt like I was constantly having to walk on egg shells in my professional life.  And it’s apparent to my family and friends that I’ve turned the corner back to being the “old, but great, Bryce” … so, that makes me 🙂  a lot lately!  Other than regaining my passion about education, I’ve done nothing even remotely exciting, but that will all change soon enough!

Okay, let’s jabber about two of my fav reality shows … RHoNJ — loved the fact that Caroline met with Danielle (hereto forthwith known as “The Staubster”) and tried to bring reality to her little dream world – unfortunately, you just cannot help crazy people.  Of course, I’ve heard – from an extremely realiable source that The Staubster was released from her contract … even though she was good for stirring the pot (not that I like crazy people drama) and it was good for ratings — she’s a loose canon with her past, current association with felons and well, delusional thoughts of gradeur.  I’m betting that Dina comes back (wink-wink) and it’s either Kim “G” or Kim D filling the spot of the certifiable, delusional Danielle. 🙂

Real World: New Orleans … I said it a while ago — Ryan is Trouble – yes, with a capital “T” … And his whacked out behaviour has NOTHING to do w/ any OCD — I can speak confidently about that since I do, in fact, have a background in psychology.  If I had to guess … I’d say he is bi-polar.  He’s had too many “I’m a happy guy” to “I’m the Devil himself” moments and just absolute RANDOM moments of weirdness — that’s classic bi-polarism. Hands down.  And he’s heading home … sources plus clips of the next episode point to that fact.  I think the house will be a much better place without him there.  If it doesn’t happen, Bunim-Murray Productions and MTV should be ashamed of not getting him out of the house for some serious help.

I’m totally ready for college football season  — GO SEMINOLES — SCALP’EM!  And of course, the US Open … so ready for Rafa Nadal to conquer the hard courts in Flushing Meadows and bring home the US Open Men’s Single Crown!  So ready for my sport season to kick back into high gear!!!!!!!  Can I get a woot-woot!

Okay, now I have to go get brekkie with friends … maybe I’ll post more later this weekend! 🙂  Hope everyone has a great time at weekend!

 

 

Laters –

Bryce