hope is the anchor of our soul.

2011-05-20_1703At the end of the day, that’s all we can want – is hope. 🙂 I have it tucked away in my heart and although this road back to my own, personal happiness seems to get longer everyday, I’m still trudging ahead.

And this picture, of my first trip to New York — reminds me that hope is the anchor of our soul.

I hope everyone is having a good week thus far …

I’ll post more later!




Aye, get oan wae it already …


Sometimes that’s what you have to do … shut up and get on with it. Part of being unhappy is allowing someone, something or some place to drive you to utter despair.  That’s the bottom line.

A lot of my close friends are truly amazed (and even a few inspired enough to go to therapy) because of my ‘back to being Bryce’ on a regular, full-time basis … so, if we were at a pub, I’d say, “Therapy all around!” 🙂

I am doing much better and I’m really doing my best — and being pretty successful — at not getting bogged down in negativity — in my professional or personal life.

Because it’s been a long day … enjoy some of my favourite quotes and songs I love …






















Here’s to a great rest of the week …

xoxo –







‘Tis the season to do so …

27936460158294784_Q3oHrzXj_cI realise that I’ve been away for a bit, but I’ve been absolutely overwhelmed with a good number of things.  Recently, my therapist asked me to explain it to her.

“Put it into words for me,” she said, “Paint me a picture.”  So, I did with these words:  Think about your worst Christmas shopping experience ever … all of the people, the hustle and bustle, the rudeness, the lack of any happiness from those around you … that’s my overwhelmed, I told her.

I haven’t been spinning out of control nor have I been unhappy, but just overwhelmed by so many things that I have -truly – no control over whatsoever.  The lack of control, for me, is a feeling of helplessness — a feeling I loathe beyond measure.

That helplessness is what overwhelms me; however, throughout my journey back to my full-time happiness, I’ve learned one thing that has helped more than all: KEEP CALM.

Of course, some of you are now rolling your eyes; however, I can tell you — that old World War II British PR campaign — truly, truly is therapy on a poster.  It did help keep London and an entire nation focused — and that’s the most important thing when you’re feeling helpless/overwhelmed – to stay focused.  That’s what, ultimately, brings you through those moments in time.

And so, my advice to everyone, everywhere overwhelmed by situations that just seem to seize control — just remember your happiness and always, always remember to:

keep calm and carry on yellow

Speaking of Christmas … it’s my favourite time of the year because I love lights, decorations and the loads of happiness it brings me.  For the longest time, I was opposed to giving gift cards, but as of late, I’ve discovered the same wide-mouthed “wows” and smiles are brought about by those little plastic, ‘use-it-once’ gifts.

Christmas Packages

So, for some I buy little presents, but for many — it’s the gift card with a note attached that says:  Please post me an email, a card to let me know how you like your present.  I thought, in the past, that there was no thought or meaning behind giving a gift card; however, my niece said to me at some point, “I can buy what I want to buy and that will make me happy.”

That set me to thinking that gift giving is about making one happy … and so, gift cards became a part of my gift giving; however, I always try to purchase at least one gift that I’ve put thought into to go along with the plastic card! 🙂

And now, I intend to shower you all with a collection of Christmas / Hanukkah pictures because ’tis the season to do so and I love pictures … So, put on some Christmas music and enjoy this barrage of happiness covered in lights and maybe even a little tinsel …


The grandest Christmas tree ever at Rockefeller Centre. 🙂

000 - Christmas Penguins

I love Penguins anyway, but seriously — how could anyone NOT love them dressed up as Santa Claus?!?!

Cartier - NYC

This is Cartier, on 5th Avenue, all wrapped up for Christmas! One of my favourite store decorations!



Christmas and Hanukkah … it’s that time of the year! 🙂



Christmas decorations in NYC are always the best … you can feel Christmas everywhere you travel in the city!

Holly Jolly Christmas Candy Cake Inside

It’s official name … Holly Jolly Christmas Candy Cane Cake. 🙂 Present forks!


Good friends make the holidays so much better …

Starbucks Christmas 2

Ahhhhhh, a warm Mocha Latte will life the spirits of all! 🙂


So excited for Hanukkah to start on 8 December … As Adam Sandler calls it … “Eight Crazy Nights” 🙂




Lighting the Menorah … more than the meals and gifts – Hanukkah is a reminder of the miracles bestowed upon the Jewish people.




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Sweet treats!

And although we know that the birth of Christ didn’t happen during this time of the year, it’s a symbolic time for Christians who celebrate the greatest gift ever given to humankind …

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And that’s it at this moment in time … now that things are back to normal – whatever that is – you should expect posts — miraculous posts back on schedule! 🙂  I do hope everyone is going well at this season!  Happy Hanukkah to all as we ready ourselves for Saturday! 🙂




Reflections when you’re wide awake …

If there is a draw back to the digital age of music … it’s that we can pick and choose what tracks we want off a new album without, well – you know,  purchasing the entire album.

It doesn’t happen often, but there’s always that one song you never heard and when you hear it – it immediately becomes an instant epiphany.  And that’s the case with the song Wide Awake by Katy Perry.

This song … I’m not even sure I can even translate what I’m thinking, feeling, understanding …

I’m wide awake
Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I’m wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong?
I’m wide awake
And now it’s clear to me
That everything you see
Ain’t always what it seems
I’m wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

I’m wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I’m wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself, no

I’m wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
Out of the lion’s den
I don’t have to pretend
And it’s too late
The story’s over now, the end

I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn’t dive in
Wouldn’t bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
‘Til I woke up on
On the concrete

Falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I’m crashing from the high
I’m letting go tonight (yeah, I’m letting you go)
I’m falling from cloud 9

I’m wide awake
Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I’m wide awake
I am trying to hold on
I’m wide awake
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
I’m wide awake
But I’m not blind anymore…

I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake

Yeah, I’m falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I’m crashing from the high
You know I’m letting go tonight (yeah, I’m letting you go)
I’m falling from cloud 9

I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake

And of course, if just reading the lyrics weren’t enough … try listening to it here:

Of course my connection with this song is the entire premise of what it’s like to wake up and finally begin to realise where you have been and where you want to go. 🙂

Part of this journey has been dealing with the past where people used me in various ways and I think I actually carry scars from being asked to be the alibi for people I thought were my friends — and ultimately when the chips fell and I needed support — they were no longer there for me.

I’m with Carrie Bradshaw on the “can you truly forgive if you can’t forget” train for situations like that!  No matter what, I am in a better place now and know who to give my love, trust and loyalty to in my life!

The journey to happiness continues and it gets better and better every single day … because I’m getting better with understanding that not everyone has to go on the journey with me! 🙂

This past weekend, I flew to NY for the weekend and had the chance to have a great time with my friends there, but also witnessing the damage to many parts of the city and its Burroughs.

I never went to Staten Island but did make it to Rockaway Beach in Queens and was overwhelmed by what I saw.  It is truly amazing – and not in a good way – to view the power of nature and its effect upon communities. 😦

I had the chance to visit, again, the 9/11 Memorial in Lower Manhattan and this time … it wasn’t crowded and it – even now – still seems surreal to me that the Twin Towers are forever gone.

I don’t think anyone who ever visited NY pre-9/11 could ever truly understand what is no longer there.  😦   I will never grow tired with NY as there are and will always be new adventures there when I return. 🙂

The Nole Nation had dreams at the start of marching, unstopped, into the BCS National Championship game; however, some beyond frustrating and RIDICULOUS play calling against N.C. State flung the Seminoles out of the race.  I could go on and on about Jimbo Fisher; however, I’m not wasting anymore time complaining about his bi-polar play calling in games that MATTER.

What I am happy about and I know the players are happy about … a 9-1 record.  That record is a true testament to the fact that FSU has experienced and seemingly (hopefully) understand adversity and how to take it by the horns and sling it to the wayside.

That’s just what happened at Virginia Tech on a cold Thursday night.  And yes, for the record let me state just how much I detest and HATE Thursday night games — FSU has never fared well … until recently. 🙂 Down 22-20 with 2.19 left to go, EJ Manuel orchestrated a 52-yard game winning drive.

A drive not punctuated with one RUNNING PLAY  – that had failed ALL BLOODY NIGHT LONG and yet, Jimbo Fisher just couldn’t seem to get it.  Perhaps that’s his problem — he comes in with one plan and one plan only … I’ve never coached, but I’m smart enough to know if you’ve got -15 yards in total rushing (and you’ve had a pretty phenomenal running game all season UNTIL this game) that you don’t keep going to it … over and over and over and over again. Note my frustration.

So, I credit the win over Virginia Tech solely to EJ Manuel who simply did what he knows how to do: lead his team down the field.  Of course, now, the media is calling Maryland’s defense one that should not be overlooked and well, it is a road game.

So, let’s hope Jimbo has more than one game plan just in case FSU’s running game is put on ice and of course, let’s all take note — listen up Jimbo … gotta win this one to make to Charlotte on 1 December for the ACC Championship and of course, there’s the little rivalry game coming to Tallahassee … although they think (the Gators) they’re going to come in and just and I quote, “demolish FSU” … LOL. 😛

And in the Middle East, Israel has finally had enough of the daily Hamas rocket bombardment and has struck hard at the heart of Hamas.  Many people shy away from this topic; however, I’m not one them.   If a line is to be drawn in the sand, then it’s quite easy for me to choose a side … the loss of any human life in this conflict is tragic; however, Israel has a right to defend themselves from the daily assaults of Hamas. Period.

President Anwar Sadat’s words, in 1979, to the new found peace between Egypt and Israel still carry great value even today:

“Let there be no more wars or bloodshed between Arabs and Israelis—let there be no more wars or bloodshed between Arabs and Israelis. Let there be no more suffering or denial of rights. Let there be no more despair or loss of faith. Let no mother lament the loss of her child. Let no young man waste his life on a conflict from which no one benefits. Let us work together until the day comes when they beat their swords into plowshares and their spears into pruning hooks. And God does call to the abode of peace. He does guide whom He pleases to His way.”
I’ve been so busy that I’ve really not been watching any telly; however, it’s all waiting for me on TiVO and of course, I’ve a week to catch up, up, up! 🙂  I hope everyone has a great weekend … I know I’ll have a great weekend because I’m going to do absolutely NOTHING. 🙂  I’m sure I’ll be posting more this week as I’ll not be “working” … No jealousy, please! 🙂

a familiar crossroad

Life is always full of its little twists and traps at every turn.

And for many of us who’ve lost our way from our own happiness – find ourselves wrangled by those twists and traps at every turn.

The trick to finding your way back is to realise that there are and will be bad days during the journey back — and know that those trials are what make you stronger in the end.

If you’ve been reading my blog, you know that I’m open about my journey back to my own happiness jumpstarted by therapy.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again … therapy is a good thing because a therapist simply provides you with the map and pushes you on your way toward your goal.

I’ve had some of those twists and turns as of late … I get so frustrated when I allow myself be drawn into those twists and turns and then, after contemplation, I realise that I’ll never truly escape those twists and turns; however, I can learn how to walk straight through them and allow them to have little-to-no effect or impact upon my life.

And now, the Seminoles find themselves at a familiar crossroad.  Having lost a game that they should have handily won, the Noles must choose if the free fall ends today or if it continues as it did last year.  Obviously, I was upset – and still am – about how Jimbo Fisher called the last series of plays against NC State last week.  And without fail, he continued to do what he always does when questioned about his play calling: defer and deflect:

“Every play was right there,” Fisher said. “Does throwing it make you more aggressive? Or does running it when you’re moving the ball and you had been averaging eight yards a carry on a [particular] play? So, hindsights’s all 2o/20. But I don’t regret any of the calls. We didn’t execute some of the things that we did, and we’ve just got to play better.” – Coley Harvey, Orlando Sentinel

Actually, Jimbo … you’ve got to get better with knowing when something isn’t working and do the opposite.  With 2.47 left to go in the game, FSU got the ball back from NC State after the ‘D’ stood their ground against the NC State ‘O’ and this is how it played out:

1st and 10 at FSU 32        Chris Thompson rush for a loss of 2 yards to FSU 30

2nd and 12 at FSU 30      Chris Thompson rush for 3 yards to FSU 33

3rd and 9 at FSU 33         EJ Manuel rush for no gain to FSU 33

4th and 9 at FSU 33         Punt for 10 yards, out at FSU 43.

And then, NC State drove 43 yards and scored the winning touchdown leaving :16 on the clock.

What, exactly, does Jimbo Fisher mean when he says he doesn’t “regret any of the calls”?  Was he actually at the game?  There was little to no running game in the second half and the only time things seemed to be on track … EJ Manuel was throwing the ball.  Anyone, yes – ANYONE – knows that to close out a game with 2.47 left on the clock means you have to have 1st downs … not just one or two, but probably three — and by gaining that many 1st downs — there would have been at least a field goal or possibly a touchdown to seal the deal.

It’s not just me – this devout Seminole fan that’s still angry, but a great number of other boosters and I’m praying and hoping the entire FSU football team.  At this juncture in the season, Mr Fisher has nothing left but to open up his playbook and use whatever he’s got to win out the season to redeem this unacceptable loss.

No offense to NC State or their fans, but that game was handed to you by a lackluster FSU offense and a less-than-stellar defensive line.  There’s no Coach Bowden to refer to in this case Jimbo … he’s not there anymore.  It’s time to make your move and here’s to hoping that you sideline your ego and lack of responsbility for your players.

And so, my dear FSU … what’s it going to be this time?  A win? A loss? Or a statement that you will NOT be defined by one loss this season?  I’m hoping for the later and here’s some advice that I think might be helpful …

Not matter what, I’m a Seminole – I bleed Garnet & Gold, I tomahawk and do the war chant because that’s what we do!

So, last week was a very long week — lots of things that had to be done and it’s all over.  The problem?  The stress literally held me together and once things de-stressed, my body – as usual – collapsed into a frenzy of sinus drainage, congestion and allergy-related nonsense.  Those of you who have sinus and allergy issues know that it’s just like being sick only more annoying because you know it’s not the flu or bronchitus.  So, in an effort to stay well, I’ve cut myself off from the outside world and all dairy products — which, if you didn’t know, ramp up mucus production and well, that leads to congestion and well, yeah. 😛

I did watch my programmes, but I’m not going to talk about any of that today because … now, it’s time to watch college football for the rest of the day, suck on cough drops, drink “plenty” of fluids and enjoy the rest of my weekend. 🙂  Here’s to a great weekend for you and yours as well!