Tis’ October … and yes, it’s been a while. And no, Halloween isn’t my favourite holiday, but it’s second. I’ve already watched Hocus Pocus — uhmmm, three times. Yes, three and it will happen more. 🙂 And whilst I’ve been gone, WordPress has upgraded itself and wow, I can post gifs … without my Photobucket account! 🙂
When you’re not well – you have way too much time on your hands to think about things, people and places. You can let that consume you or work through it — and move forward from things, people and places that just aren’t for you anymore. I’ve been on this journey, actually, since May 2014. And honestly, it was rough for a while, but now … well, now things are settling down … and I’m starting to be back in a good place. 🙂
Let me just start off by saying, I need to belong to NA. Wait for it … I know what you’re thinking, but you’re not right … I’m talking about Netflix Anonymous. I get a huge Vizio Smart TV — and now, I’m insane with Netflix and Amazon Prime … I’m not even going to touch Hulu! Right now my obsession on Netflix is THE ORIGINALS. Just started S2 — and I just watch and watch and watch and watch … you, get the picture, right?
I’m glad college football season is back and I’m glad to be back in Tallahassee for one of our first big games this season … we play Miami tomorrow night. It doesn’t matter if any of our arch rivals are ranked or unranked, losing or winning … these games are ALWAYS hard fought … just glad we’re at Doak Campbell this year! We have a young, young team on both sides of the ball and well, Golson hasn’t really impressed me completely … hoping Sean gets a chance to throw the ball tomorrow night. 🙂
So, the Republicans have done everything they can to destroy Hillary, but their repeated attempts have failed – miserably. They forget that Hillary has had to fight her entire life and has been dinged constantly from all sides … she’s a survivor, a fighter and tells it like it is … I’m so proud to be a part of her campaign! The Grand Old Party .. ain’t so grand anymore!
And, that’s about all I’m good for tonight … I’ve missed scribbling down my thoughts – so, my goal is to be back at least once per week — yes, I know, I know – you’ve heard that all before, but truth is — this little bit of scribbling has lit the fire again!
Everyone have a great weekend … and GO SEMINOLES!
Because everyone can always use a little Jack and Karen … 🙂
Yes, yes … ahhhh, yes. I know, I know. It’s been a day and forever since I scribbled. I’ve been thinking, working and contemplating many things … I tend to withdraw from most things when I’m in this mode and thus, my lack of wordpressing … and for those of you who have taken the time to email – thanks for that! 🙂
As I get older, I realise that just when you think (believe) that you’ve figured out some things, you’re thrown for a loop. I am able to deal with the loops much more now than in the past because once you’ve been hurt, you approach people (even those you’ve known a long time and those you’ve just met) with the same caution – so, that you’re not shocked when something happens.
I am, in no way, not a perfect person – I make mistakes and I know that I take responsibility for those mistakes – and I know there are some people who don’t care for me … and that’s their deal – not mine. In fact, the older I get, those instances become the bittersweet lessons in life. What you thought ends up not being what you thought at all … for a bit you miss those people, but when you embrace the reality of what and who they are – you just file it away as a lesson learned.
Quite frankly, the two biggest lessons I’ve learned this year is that people who hurt you and think they’ve done nothing wrong and those who make assumptions without even talking to you before they say or write something — aren’t worth your time and have no place in your life. People say they don’t like getting older — getting older has so many advantages and the most important one to me is: clarity. And there is NOTHING like clarity! 🙂 And with that being said … I am no longer allowing or giving power to anyone who thinks it’s okay to do or say things that can hurt me. And yes, it’s my favourite time of the year … I love the Christmas season because I love giving gifts to my family and friends … I love watching them light up when they open up the gift(s) I buy them … that’s the BEST part of Christmas for me!!! The early start to the cold weather across the country has seemingly put the majority of people in a good mood. If I did have at least one wish that could be honoured it would be that all of the hate, violence, jealousy and stupidity would disappear from our entire planet.
Tonight my Seminoles play for the ACC title in Charlotte, NC — I’m happy that they’ve returned for the title and of course, it’s amazing that they are ranked #4 in the CFP rankings even though they are the ONLY team undefeated at 12-0. I keep hearing about Strength of Schedule (SOS), Conferences, quality wins … what I don’t hear about is how FSU has managed to still win games when they lost a good number of players on both sides of the ball after winning the 2013 National Championship, have had huge distractions courtesy of Jameis Winston and have had to come back in more games this year than any other team in the FBS — and still manage to WIN despite every team coming to take them down.
As I’ve told my friends – it’s good to be the underdog … if FSU plays the way we know they are capable of playing the rest of the season, we’ll be watching them hoist that new, UGLY National Championship trophy – if they don’t play the way they are capable of playing, they’ll end their winning streak and not repeat. Of course, nothing – to date – has convinced me that they’ll lose the rest of the season. Nothing would give me great pleasure than to watch my Seminoles win it all again and be able to smile and laugh at ESPN, the CFP Committee and the haters! So, let’s get to it NoleNation!
So – telly has been pretty good this fall season … Major Crimes, Elementary, The Exes, The Game, Once Upon a Time, Resurrection and Sleepy Hollow … I’ve not watched Gracepoint because it’s nothing more than than the American version of Broadchurch — and according to my friends watching it to compare it — it has been the same exact show — so, if the killer ends up being who it was in Broadchurch, I get the great pleasure of telling a smug Tweeter … I told you, so! 🙂 If not — I’ll be interested in the twist of how it is someone different!
The political climate of the country is going to be interesting over the next two years … And sadly, we’ve seen the lack of experience shine brighter than any accomplishment that the current administration can beat a drum to. The biggest issue for me — the absolute and utter lack of support for Israel in the Israeli-Hamas conflict. I refuse to hold the Palestinian people (albeit those who are a part of Hamas or jihadist groups) responsible for the actions of these hate-filled, murderous, less than human animals.
Even recently, the concrete purchased to rebuild Gaza has been sold on the black market — this concrete was purchased with monies from the US and other countries. When will those chained to political correctness learn that hatred NEVER brings about peace and providing anything to that region controlled by Hamas will never really go to help the people who were living there long before Hamas seized control. Hamas doesn’t give a damn about the Palestinian people.
I am consistently amazed at the arguments people use to attack Israel and the labeling of Israel as Nazis. You cannot unprogramme the brainwashed … the anti-Israeli Arabs, Muslims and others are taught to systematically hate Israel and all Jews over and over and over until they believe it is the absolute truth. These people cannot be saved from their ideology because it is permanently embedded in their brains. I have no pity or empathy for any of them … their day is coming and it’s not going to be worth 70 virgins.
And in 2016 – well, for me – even now – I’m making it very clear that I’ll be throwing my time, energy and money behind Hillary Clinton becoming the next POTUS! I still feel she was robbed of the nomination in 2008 — and like I said then, it had nothing to do with race, but all to do with experience. And I think the lack of experience has shined through quite clearly.
So, on that note, I have some Amazomin’ and Grouponin’ to do to finalise my Christmas shopping … I hope everyone has a great weekend! I’ll make no promises to start scribbling again, but I am going to make a concerted effort because I always enjoy getting my thoughts down on this “digital paper” …
Well, so much for sticking to my goal of journaling at least once per week, but sooner is better than never! I’ve been, as those of you who follow, recovering from a what I’m calling the longest year (2013) of my life. I lost my 93-year-old grandmum in March — had two major health scares/issues (all is well now!) and then I lost my four-legged child, Nica. Last year – as the old adage goes – wasn’t my year.
Needless to say … 2013 is a year that I will never truly look back upon with any admiration. Ever.
I’ll say that 2014 has started out pretty well and I’m praying (and hoping) that the trials and tribulations of the past year are … gone – at the very least grounded. Of course it all started out with a little trip on 6 January to Pasadena, California (Los Angeles) for a little game called: The National Championship …
I don’t think I need to really go into great detail, but my Garnet & Gold boys weren’t doing so great in the first half — and then, well, the second half happened and this picture sums it up so nice and neatly …
And yeah, we scored 24 points to bring the trophy home … it showed that our team has character, strength, unity and determination! Never been so proud to be a member of the Seminole Nation! And yes, dear Gator fans — we just tied it up with three. So, suck it!
And of course, since I lost Nica — I’ve been on a roller coaster of emotions (still am – truthfully) and I struggle with her not being here with me; however, I’ve a new little one that will be coming home with me this Friday (24 Jan) …
Her name is Alexa — I didn’t have a hard time picking out her name! She, of course, is not a replacement for Nica — she’s just the next chapter in my life of Jack Russell Terriers. It’s so hard when you lose them and I had almost decided that I wasn’t going to ever put myself in that position again of being so sad and heartbroken.
And then friends stepped in … and my dear friend, Dona told me: Don’t wait like I did. And so, in an effort to bring about some healing — I found a wonderful couple who are hobbyists who had puppies born in late November — they don’t breed year round — and well, they’re family now! I’m so excited — I’ve had some guilt — for this Friday, but I know that Nica wouldn’t want me to be sad … and I, in turn, know that Nica would love Alexa!
And that’s where I am … although my journey to being happy was derailed last year – I’m determined to get myself back on the track and move forward — I won’t forget my grandmum or Nica, but I’ll heal and treasure all of my good memories of both of them.
I hope everyone has a great week … I am off tomorrow and Tuesday! Yes, it’s good to be …
It’s hard to let go of people – especially if they’re blood. I’ve been in this tug-o-war with wanting to do what’s right and well, letting go and walking away because after a while you just get tired of dealing with pure, unadulterated nonsense in your life.
As therapy has taught me – sometimes you cannot do anything to alter the course of another’s thinking — especially if they’ve built it into their own convenient truth. And when it’s their truth – nothing you can say or do will ever be right.
I’m not sure if getting older has anything to do with it, but I think there must be some chemical released that just makes you ultimately reject utter nonsense. I just don’t have time to deal with it any more and especially when it became vindictive. I’m not allowing anyone to derail my journey back to being the old, fly-by-the-seat-of-his-trousers, happy, go-lucky, silly Bryce.
We learned one very important thing on Saturday during FSU’s 62-7 route of Nevada: Jameis Winston doesn’t get down on himself easily. I must admit, I became anxious and nervous when FSU fell behind. It’s that feeling most Seminole fans have had to deal with the last few years. And it’s not fun.
Winston isn’t like any of our former QBs from the last few years — unlike those, he stepped back into it and made things happen. He wasn’t rattled – he returned to the basics and secured his confidence and then lit it up.
I think it’s safe to say that our running game is back as well with Freeman, Wilder and Williams — it’s just going to get better as the season goes on. And the ‘D’ – which is top-heavy with underclassmen — they’re growing up fast and getting better by the play.
Of course, this was Nevada – an FBS opponent. It’s hard to understand why FSU is playing Nevada, Bethune-Cookman and Idaho this year, but hopefully the last two do not become stumbling blocks for FSU. I’m really hopeful for this year — and of course, I’m hopeful a few other teams we have to play end up ranked in the Top 25 to spruce up our end-of-season resume.
I’m so hooked. David Tennant, whom I love as an actor – especially as the 10th Doctor – has managed to capture the essence of his character DI Alec Hardy and make Doctor Who fans watching wince frequently.
He’s not the funny, go-lucky Doctor — instead, he’s an often arrogant, smug bastard that makes you want to reach into the screen and pop him a good one. And that’s what makes him an outstanding actor because of his ability to transform – completely – his image from previous roles he’s played.
Anyway, the first series is just pitched in eight shows — and it’s captured my attention from the start. It reminded me of AMC’s The Killing … They’ve thrown every wrench they can to keep you from figuring out who killed 11-year-old Danny Latimer, but I think I’ve figured it out — and we’ve only two shows remaining.
I believe Danny’s killer is DS Ellie Miller’s husband and I base that upon a few subtle things he’s said or done in previous shows — and in the upcoming show, his son Tom smashes up his own laptop in an attempt to prevent any data recovery. I don’t want to guess why he’s the killer, but I believe him to be the killer. And we’ll know for sure in two more shows.
Broadchurch doesn’t end — its been announced that they’ll return with a second series and that is pretty exciting! Broadchurch airs on ITV in the UK, but in the US it airs on BBC America. If you have BBC America OnDemand, you can catch up with all the episodes before the final airs.
And of course, there is my sweet Nica. I talked about her condition here and now we’re on this slow-paced recovery. She’s back to her old self, but is still so very thin. Our new vet has shared that older dogs have a hard time putting weight on quickly and because of what she went through — well, this will take a few months even to put on three-to-four pounds.
Those of you with dogs can appreciate why this upsets me. She only weighed just under 10 pounds when she had this dramatic 4.5 pound weight loss; however, she’s eating ‘raw’ food now — scrambled eggs, cottage cheese, boiled chicken and veggies.
She’s no longer lethargic and she’s back to wagging her tail non-stop, carrying around her babies and barking again. I must admit, I cried the first time she barked again. I’m thankful to God and of course my parents and friends who’ve been supportive through this moment in time. Also, thanks to those of you from here who’ve taken the time to email to check up on her! 🙂
I know she won’t be here forever; however, she shouldn’t have to leave earlier than her time because of some incompetent, young and arrogant vet who doesn’t deserve to practice!
I hope everyone is having a great Sunday thus far and that this week will be smooth sailing … I know I have to get back in the habit of scribbling my thoughts down — it helps me debrief at the end of week — and it’s cleansing! 🙂