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Tis’ October … and yes, it’s been a while.  And no, Halloween isn’t my favourite holiday, but it’s second.  I’ve already watched Hocus Pocus — uhmmm, three times. Yes, three and it will happen more. 🙂  And whilst I’ve been gone, WordPress has upgraded itself and wow, I can post gifs … without my Photobucket account! 🙂

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When you’re not well – you have way too much time on your hands to think about things, people and places.  You can let that consume you or work through it — and move forward from things, people and places that just aren’t for you anymore.  I’ve been on this journey, actually, since May 2014.  And honestly, it was rough for a while, but now … well, now things are settling down … and I’m starting to be back in a good place. 🙂

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Let me just start off by saying, I need to belong to NA.  Wait for it … I know what you’re thinking, but you’re not right … I’m talking about Netflix Anonymous. I get a huge Vizio Smart TV — and now, I’m insane with Netflix and Amazon Prime … I’m not even going to touch Hulu!  Right now my obsession on Netflix is THE ORIGINALS.  Just started S2 — and I just watch and watch and watch and watch … you, get the picture, right?

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I’m glad college football season is back and I’m glad to be back in Tallahassee for one of our first big games this season … we play Miami tomorrow night.  It doesn’t matter if any of our arch rivals are ranked or unranked, losing or winning … these games are ALWAYS hard fought … just glad we’re at Doak Campbell this year!  We have a young, young team on both sides of the ball and well, Golson hasn’t really impressed me completely … hoping Sean gets a chance to throw the ball tomorrow night. 🙂

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So, the Republicans have done everything they can to destroy Hillary, but their repeated attempts have failed – miserably.  They forget that Hillary has had to fight her entire life and has been dinged constantly from all sides … she’s a survivor, a fighter and tells it like it is … I’m so proud to be a part of her campaign!  The Grand Old Party .. ain’t so grand anymore!

And, that’s about all I’m good for tonight … I’ve missed scribbling down my thoughts – so, my goal is to be back at least once per week — yes, I know, I know – you’ve heard that all before, but truth is — this little bit of scribbling has lit the fire again!

Everyone have a great weekend … and GO SEMINOLES!

Hugs –

Bryce

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Because everyone can always use a little Jack and Karen … 🙂

Scribbles on a Sunday AM.


2012-10-28_1250_001It’s hard to let go of people – especially if they’re blood.  I’ve been in this tug-o-war with wanting to do what’s right and well, letting go and walking away because after a while you just get tired of dealing with pure, unadulterated nonsense in your life.

As therapy has taught me – sometimes you cannot do anything to alter the course of another’s thinking — especially if they’ve built it into their own convenient truth.  And when it’s their truth – nothing you can say or do will ever be right.

I’m not sure if getting older has anything to do with it, but I think there must be some chemical released that just makes you ultimately reject utter nonsense.  I just don’t have time to deal with it any more and especially when it became vindictive.  I’m not allowing anyone to derail my journey back to being the old, fly-by-the-seat-of-his-trousers, happy, go-lucky, silly Bryce.

2012-10-28_1117We learned one very important thing on Saturday during FSU’s 62-7 route of Nevada: Jameis Winston doesn’t get down on himself easily.  I must admit, I became anxious and nervous when FSU fell behind.  It’s that feeling most Seminole fans have had to deal with the last few years.  And it’s not fun.

Winston isn’t like any of our former QBs from the last few years — unlike those, he stepped back into it and made things happen.  He wasn’t rattled – he returned to the basics and secured his confidence and then lit it up.

I think it’s safe to say that our running game is back as well with Freeman, Wilder and Williams — it’s just going to get better as the season goes on.  And the ‘D’ – which is top-heavy with underclassmen — they’re growing up fast and getting better by the play.

Of course, this was Nevada – an FBS opponent.  It’s hard to understand why FSU is playing Nevada, Bethune-Cookman and Idaho this year, but hopefully the last two do not become stumbling blocks for FSU.  I’m really hopeful for this year — and of course, I’m hopeful a few other teams we have to play end up ranked in the Top 25 to spruce up our end-of-season resume.

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I’m so hooked. David Tennant, whom I love as an actor – especially as the 10th Doctor – has managed to capture the essence of his character DI Alec Hardy and make Doctor Who fans watching wince frequently.

He’s not the funny, go-lucky Doctor — instead, he’s an often arrogant, smug bastard that makes you want to reach into the screen and pop him a good one.  And that’s what makes him an outstanding actor because of his ability to transform – completely – his image from previous roles he’s played.

Anyway, the first series is just pitched in eight shows — and it’s captured my attention from the start.  It reminded me of AMC’s The Killing … They’ve thrown every wrench they can to keep you from figuring out who killed 11-year-old Danny Latimer, but I think I’ve figured it out — and we’ve only two shows remaining.

I believe Danny’s killer is DS Ellie Miller’s husband and I base that upon a few subtle things he’s said or done in previous shows — and in the upcoming show, his son Tom smashes up his own laptop in an attempt to prevent any data recovery.  I don’t want to guess why he’s the killer, but I believe him to be the killer.  And we’ll know for sure in two more shows.

Broadchurch doesn’t end — its been announced that they’ll return with a second series and that is pretty exciting!  Broadchurch airs on ITV in the UK, but in the US it airs on BBC America.  If you have BBC America OnDemand, you can catch up with all the episodes before the final airs.

2013-09-15_0933And of course, there is my sweet Nica.  I talked about her condition here and now we’re on this slow-paced recovery.  She’s back to her old self, but is still so very thin.  Our new vet has shared that older dogs have a hard time putting weight on quickly and because of what she went through — well, this will take a few months even to put on three-to-four pounds.

Those of you with dogs can appreciate why this upsets me.  She only weighed just under 10 pounds when she had this dramatic 4.5 pound weight loss; however, she’s eating ‘raw’ food now — scrambled eggs, cottage cheese, boiled chicken and veggies.

She’s no longer lethargic and she’s back to wagging her tail non-stop, carrying around her babies and barking again.  I must admit, I cried the first time she barked again.  I’m thankful to God and of course my parents and friends who’ve been supportive through this moment in time.  Also, thanks to those of you from here who’ve taken the time to email to check up on her! 🙂

I know she won’t be here forever; however, she shouldn’t have to leave earlier than her time because of some incompetent, young and arrogant vet who doesn’t deserve to practice!

I hope everyone is having a great Sunday thus far and that this week will be smooth sailing … I know I have to get back in the habit of scribbling my thoughts down — it helps me debrief at the end of week — and it’s cleansing! 🙂

Hugs,

Bryce

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a familiar crossroad


Life is always full of its little twists and traps at every turn.

And for many of us who’ve lost our way from our own happiness – find ourselves wrangled by those twists and traps at every turn.

The trick to finding your way back is to realise that there are and will be bad days during the journey back — and know that those trials are what make you stronger in the end.

If you’ve been reading my blog, you know that I’m open about my journey back to my own happiness jumpstarted by therapy.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again … therapy is a good thing because a therapist simply provides you with the map and pushes you on your way toward your goal.

I’ve had some of those twists and turns as of late … I get so frustrated when I allow myself be drawn into those twists and turns and then, after contemplation, I realise that I’ll never truly escape those twists and turns; however, I can learn how to walk straight through them and allow them to have little-to-no effect or impact upon my life.

And now, the Seminoles find themselves at a familiar crossroad.  Having lost a game that they should have handily won, the Noles must choose if the free fall ends today or if it continues as it did last year.  Obviously, I was upset – and still am – about how Jimbo Fisher called the last series of plays against NC State last week.  And without fail, he continued to do what he always does when questioned about his play calling: defer and deflect:

“Every play was right there,” Fisher said. “Does throwing it make you more aggressive? Or does running it when you’re moving the ball and you had been averaging eight yards a carry on a [particular] play? So, hindsights’s all 2o/20. But I don’t regret any of the calls. We didn’t execute some of the things that we did, and we’ve just got to play better.” – Coley Harvey, Orlando Sentinel

Actually, Jimbo … you’ve got to get better with knowing when something isn’t working and do the opposite.  With 2.47 left to go in the game, FSU got the ball back from NC State after the ‘D’ stood their ground against the NC State ‘O’ and this is how it played out:

1st and 10 at FSU 32        Chris Thompson rush for a loss of 2 yards to FSU 30

2nd and 12 at FSU 30      Chris Thompson rush for 3 yards to FSU 33

3rd and 9 at FSU 33         EJ Manuel rush for no gain to FSU 33

4th and 9 at FSU 33         Punt for 10 yards, out at FSU 43.

And then, NC State drove 43 yards and scored the winning touchdown leaving :16 on the clock.

What, exactly, does Jimbo Fisher mean when he says he doesn’t “regret any of the calls”?  Was he actually at the game?  There was little to no running game in the second half and the only time things seemed to be on track … EJ Manuel was throwing the ball.  Anyone, yes – ANYONE – knows that to close out a game with 2.47 left on the clock means you have to have 1st downs … not just one or two, but probably three — and by gaining that many 1st downs — there would have been at least a field goal or possibly a touchdown to seal the deal.

It’s not just me – this devout Seminole fan that’s still angry, but a great number of other boosters and I’m praying and hoping the entire FSU football team.  At this juncture in the season, Mr Fisher has nothing left but to open up his playbook and use whatever he’s got to win out the season to redeem this unacceptable loss.

No offense to NC State or their fans, but that game was handed to you by a lackluster FSU offense and a less-than-stellar defensive line.  There’s no Coach Bowden to refer to in this case Jimbo … he’s not there anymore.  It’s time to make your move and here’s to hoping that you sideline your ego and lack of responsbility for your players.

And so, my dear FSU … what’s it going to be this time?  A win? A loss? Or a statement that you will NOT be defined by one loss this season?  I’m hoping for the later and here’s some advice that I think might be helpful …

Not matter what, I’m a Seminole – I bleed Garnet & Gold, I tomahawk and do the war chant because that’s what we do!

So, last week was a very long week — lots of things that had to be done and it’s all over.  The problem?  The stress literally held me together and once things de-stressed, my body – as usual – collapsed into a frenzy of sinus drainage, congestion and allergy-related nonsense.  Those of you who have sinus and allergy issues know that it’s just like being sick only more annoying because you know it’s not the flu or bronchitus.  So, in an effort to stay well, I’ve cut myself off from the outside world and all dairy products — which, if you didn’t know, ramp up mucus production and well, that leads to congestion and well, yeah. 😛

I did watch my programmes, but I’m not going to talk about any of that today because … now, it’s time to watch college football for the rest of the day, suck on cough drops, drink “plenty” of fluids and enjoy the rest of my weekend. 🙂  Here’s to a great weekend for you and yours as well!

Peace,

Dear Jimbo: Please turn to page 2 of your playbook.



So, the last couple of weeks have been extremely long, difficult and tiring.  And this coming week will be extremely intense as well.  Lots of things that I must do — and quite frankly, I don’t want to do any of them; however, I’ve no choice nor voice in the matter(s) — and so,  I’ll just push through it all and hope for the very, very best.  If you pray — prayers would be good … now and for the long haul.

I’m still on my journey to happiness; however, every so often you really hit a spot and it’s really hard to go around, over or under it … so, as I said, you have to push through it and hope for the best. 😉  I feel confident that I’ll be fine, but sometimes … confidence is overrated.

So, when you’re on your road back to happiness, there are usually a handful of things that make you happy.  One of mine is college football season and of course, my FSU Seminoles.  I am 1000% a Seminole and love, love, love, love, love my FSU teams – especially football; however,   I am so disgusted with FSU’s loss to NC State last night.

I have no words for it other than Jimbo Fisher is an IDIOT.  His conservative play calling for the last two weeks has almost cost FSU two road games at night.  FSU pulled it out against USF, but against NC State … all he could say in his post-conference was “We didn’t do this…”  “We didn’t execute this…” and ‘we, we, we…” … No Jimbo – it’s more like YOU, YOU, YOU. I’m so pissed off about it I could scream for days on end … if I had the strength to do so.

One thing I know for sure: Jimbo Fisher is NO Bobby Bowden. Coach Bowden always took responsibility for a game like we witnessed last night.  He laid blame on the players when they didn’t follow the game plan, but he never tried to wrap it up in a “We” package.

The only responsibility Fisher took for the travesty of a game HE called was, “We have to coach them better…”  other than that it was “we, we, we…”  The most important thing Jimbo Fisher needs to know is that he cannot play against ANY teams with his Sunday School conservative play calling.

These same teams – given the chance (and in the past they had their chance and blew FSU out of the stadiums whilst we were down those five seasons) wouldn’t think nor blink twice about running the score up without any mercy.  So, I’d say this … Dear Jimbo: Please turn to page 2 of your playbook.  – Sincerely, The Seminole Nation

Nobody and I mean nobody is going to be ‘nice’ to FSU on the football field.  They’re not going to take a knee – as Chris Thompson did against USF at the end of the game … they’re going to score, score, score and score some more!

So, for the sake of your own job, our players and the fan base that seemed to be coming back … LET’S PLAY OLD SCHOOL FSU FOOTBALL AND TAKE IT TO EVERY SINGLE TEAM WE PLAY!  The little slogan you have, “It’s Our Time” needs to really mean something – so make it mean something.  Because I’m already – and it’s only been 12 hours since we lost to NC State – reading about how FSU was overrated.  Is FSU overrated? I think we’ll know by seasons end if that assessment – being made by the usual suspects – can stand on its own.

I still believe FSU can polish off the rest of their regular season with wins over everyone — including Florida.  And yes although I’m still pissed off from last night, I’m still over here bleeding Garnet & Gold … because I’m a Seminole. Period. 🙂

No, I’m not going to talk about the first Presidential Debate between Mitt “the 47% I don’t care about” Romney and President Obama … all I can say about any of it is that Hillary Clinton would have made a better choice four years ago and yes, right now.  Hillary 2016. 🙂  And that is all I have to say about that.

So, on to the telly scene … Once Upon a Time didn’t disappoint!  The spell broken, but the purple haze and Mr Gold’s secrets … There isn’t much one can say about last weeks season premiere other than it left me wanting more.  There was one moment when Regina seemed to be at the mercy of the crowd and whether she’d live to see another day.

So, tonight, we learn about what happens when anyone tries to leave Storybrooke. Which brings Barbara Hershey back for a guest appearance as Regina’s oppressing mother, Cora.  I hope they keep it tightly wound — because that’s what keeps me coming back for me each week!

And of course, now to The Real Housewives of New Jersey (RHoNJ) … yes, I know, but I like it – what can I say? After last week’s reunion (part one of three), now more than ever, I am Team Everyone, except Teresa.

Anyone who has watched the show can truly see just how low Teresa will go to keep the upper hand.  One thing I have always been taught is that those who’ve passed and cannot defend themselves are off limits. But apparently that rule, as well as a bajillion other rules, do not apply to Teresa.

Although there were lots of great moments like … “Sit over there in your Christmas Pageant dress and shut up!” … “Spell Napalm … she can’t spell it because she doesn’t know what’s in her blog because she doesn’t write it…” and “Three rolls of blubber … ” — perhaps the best moment is when Rosie hears Teresa talking about her deceased father … I loved watching Teresa leave skid marks on herself as Rosie proceeds to tell her she’ll kill her for crossing the line.  Priceless. Ahhh, look it’s in pageant green! 😉 LOL!

Apparently there’s now a third part … which we never heard about before and so, I’ll just say this: Ladies and gentlemen, please fasten your seatbelts, sit back and relax because this ride is about to get CA-RAY-ZEE. 🙂

At long last Bedlam has returned to BBC … although, Jed Harper (Theo James) is no longer on the show – as is most of the original cast … I’m going to still give the show a chance.  The first episode of the S2 was hard to watch because … well, the original cast is gone.

It seems that with Jed’s untimely death (for some reason, I don’t remember him dying in the S1 finale – anyone else?) passed his gift on to another young lady, Ellie (Lacey Turner) and she’s made her way to Bedlam – oh, yeah – that’s changed as well.  So, we’ll see how it goes … and if I continue to watch.

As for some of my regular favourites … The Big Bang Theory, Modern Family, Major Crimes and Hex continue to keep me happy!  Oh, I almost forgot  Last Resort … for me, the jury is still out on this show.  I like the premise of the show and I was captivated for the first two episodes, but we’ll see if I remain captive. 🙂

It’s fall people and depending upon where you live … you either have the great weather or you’re still roasting.  The best weather is mid-to-high 50s – just chilly enough for a nice FSU hoodie and fun activities outside!  I love late October and Halloween, but it’s not my favourite time of the year … that’s coming really soon — sooner than I want it to come! 🙂  I guess I probably should get busy working on my 2012 Christmas CD … since I always start November off with Christmas music! 🙂

Hope everyone has a great week! 🙂

Shalom,

knocking it out of the ball park


When you’re on the road back to happiness … you can certainly learn a lot about yourself – if you allow yourself to do so! 🙂  I’ve always been fairly tolerant, patient and well, a whole list of things one might expect of themselves.  And for the record, that’s not me saying that — it’s my core group of friends who say that to me here and there.

More and more, I’m hearing them tell me that the “old Bryce” is back.  Of course, who is the “old Bryce” I ask them.  And for this, they had a list yesterday whilst we tailgated before the FSU-Clemson game:

  1. You’re laid back again … thank God!
  2. Silly, silly, silly … it’s the best part about you!
  3. Laughing more than you have in a long time!
  4. Eyes are peaceful.
  5. You’re singing again and it’s awesome to hear you sing.
  6. I don’t dread seeing you. :::WOW::: [honesty is always a hard medicine to swallow]
  7. Giggles, giggles and more giggles.
  8. Spontaneous and not so uptight.

Sometimes, your friends are the best therapy and well, therapists out there.  I guess #6 caught me off guard, but I get it.  When you’re miserable — well, your good friends know it and they can sense it.

Even if your trying to fake it through a smile and laughter — apparently, the eyes are the dead give away that things aren’t all they appear to be.  It’s always nice to know that people recognise what you’ve been working on and that you’re knocking it out of the ball park. 🙂  And so the journey continues …

“I face the day again.  Against the window pane. I remain your closest friend and wish you back again.  But still the days drag on.  Why did you decide to go?  Did you only need to see what only time can show?   I’ll be waiting. I may be young or old and gray … counting the days.  But I’ll be waiting and when I finally see you come, I’ll run when I see you …” – Amy Grant, The Prodigal

So, there was this game in Tallahassee yesterday.  Holy cow, FSU is seemingly on the road back to being the ‘old FSU’ … and I have to say, I’m loving the maturity of the entire FSU football team … from the coaches to the players.

This year, there isn’t this one-track mind of the National Championship – instead it’s a ‘one game at a time’ mentality and that, for the record, brings about the best FOCUS!! 🙂  And I must say that it was nice to see Doak Campbell packed beyond capacity for the game. I can only imagine that the team completely feed off the energy of the crowd from start to finish.

I never doubted that we wouldn’t win the game, but I’ll just say that I’ve no fingernails left (I tear them off — no biting) because I “ripped” the ends of them off during the entire first half.  I was anxious beyond words, but knew the game wasn’t out of reach so long as the original plan wasn’t abandoned.

My friend Jeff and I were talking about how Chad Morris, Clemson’s offensive coordinator,  would eventually run out of different looks for Florida State’s defensive line.  And that breakdown occurred in the early part of the 3rd Quarter.  And Mark Stoops, stepped it up after the half.

I think we saw EJ Manuel grow up a lot during the second half of the game and of course, I think a confidence — not arrogance — has been vested now by the entire coaching staff and the team.  I truly am excited about what the future – beyond this season – holds for FSU! 😉

Needless to say, once EJ & Co. got rolling, the Seminoles … well,  five touchdowns later, with 0:00 and FSU 49  Clemson 37  blaring on the scoreboard …  the fireworks whizzed high above Doak Campbell and the Marching Chiefs went ‘crazy’ with the War Chant!  And if you’ve yet to figure it out … this ‘boy’ bleeds Garnet & Gold, baby!

The next three weeks are going to be absolutely, undeniably insane and although I don’t think I’m ready for everything that’s going to happen (not that any of it is bad, mind you!)  … I know that it’ll all be okay because a higher power sustains me! 🙂

And with that being said, it’s time for me to get myself on task before my night completely slips away!

Hope everyone has a great, great week …

Shalom,