Regret is a ‘funny’ thing … it’s the idea of doing or saying something and later – sometimes sooner and many times much later – wishing that it had never been said or done in the first place. If you’re a human being, which I suspect most of my blog readership is 🙂 … you’ve had way more regrets since you became an adult than before you understood what they were.
I try not to have regrets, I try to think things through, but I don’t always do that and well, that’s just – sadly – a part of being an emotional being. I’ve had people tell me that I’m “too emotional” but Dr. C says it’s just the way I’m wired — and that I’ve been wired this way a very long time. I was fortunate enough to sit with her on Wednesday afternoon for longer than my normal time … and it was helpful.
My regret – as you’ve been waiting for – is that I allowed anger, hurt and frustration to rule my reasoning and thought processes in writing my last blog entry (which is gone because removing it was the right thing to do) where I talked about an experience I had been through. And even with the truth being a part of that written display – it just wasn’t right to put that hurt on display.
So, to my readership … just know that owning your role in a conflict is more important than being right. I know that I should have never allowed my anger, hurt and frustration rule my heart.
And this is why I have my standing time with Dr. C. I want to be a better person and even though I can never not be emotionally involved in things that happen to me, I can do better with understanding my emotions and keeping them in check – when they need to be kept in check.
And now, I’m moving past this regret and back to being the person I know that I am. 🙂 I’m going to spend the rest of today running my Alexa ragged in my parents backyard before I head home to do some chores and then spend time with friends at weekend! 🙂
Here’s to being better –